PROCARE who made our family complete

Not sure where I should start. My husband and I will be married 7 years this year and due to fertility issues, we were not able to fall pregnant. At first, we didn't give adoption a second thought as I always just wanted to have a child of my own.

Then one day on my way to work I heard a broadcast on CCFM about adoption and just that morning I had been pleading with God to bless us with a little one. That same afternoon driving home I heard the same broadcast and decided to give it some thought. Got home that evening and asked my Husband how he felt about adoption and he said he wouldn't mind adopting a baby if that is what God has planned for us.

I emailed a few agencies and only PROCARE responded. At the time we decided we would just go to get more information and then go through the process a year or two later. I then set up an appointment for the orientation and got an overload of information. We then decided we would complete the paperwork and see how far we came, still thinking we would only be matched within a year. 

Two months later we had completed the entire process and we were declared “paper pregnant”. My husband was ecstatic, I on the other hand felt absolutely nothing. I felt so scared to voice that I was not even excited, as I thought that it might influence the whole process. 

A few months later, the social worker from PROCARE contacted me and I didn't even know who she was as I had completely put the adoption out of my mind as I was so scared of being disappointed. The funny thing is even after I spoke to her it still didn't feel like it was really going to happen. We went the next day for a matching meeting and my husband immediately said this is our baby that we have been waiting for. 

On the morning of the placement, I still had no feeling whatsoever and it scared me as I thought I wouldn't be able to bond with our little girl. As the kangaroo parents came in with her that morning and handed her to me, she looked directly at me with the biggest eyes and gave me the most perfect smile any mommy could hope for. She was and still is the most perfect little person I had ever met. We connected immediately and I burst out crying as all my fears had vanished this was my princess and she was going home with me. 

There has been lots of adjustments, but I can't imagine my life without her. She has been abundantly blessed with everything any little girl could hope for. It's the best feeling ever when she doesn't see me and starts crying and when I pick her up, she has the biggest smile on her face to see her mommy. She fits in perfectly with our family and is immensely spoilt by her grandparents.

Thank you to all at PROCARE who made our family complete